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Tuesday, March 27th, 2012
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1:14 am - Yup.. life sucks
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So in need of a new job. I don't think I'll be able to handle it if Cameo and Tasha are gone. I hate katie so much. She's changing my schedule on me for no real reason. Anyway, I'm so ready to go back to part-time. Not really much choice since I can't work my full 36 hours that are required by my position. Katie is all "if you can't do this job you need to think about your options" she basically wants me to quit since I can't do my job to her expectations anymore. News flash darling.. it's all work related injuries. I don't think she really knows what she'd doing.. Wow.. that really didn't make any sense, but maybe that's because I'm completely whooped.
current mood:  exhausted
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| Monday, March 26th, 2012
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3:19 am - Wow.. epic fail
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Yeah, so I was going to update this more frequently... haha. Maybe I can keep up with that now.
Bam! 'Kayso, the finger issue is apparently a tendon issue commonly reffered to as trigger finger and it is a permanent thing that will never go away, it can only be treated with cortisone injections when it flares up. My ankle issue is something else entirely, it is apparently a deposit of dead fatty tissue from some kind of injury. And the pain is from the stage one pitting edema I have in both my legs. So suffice it to say, I'm falling apart all because of my job. Thank you Payless.
On a higher note, we are in the process of hatching out a new batch of chickens. We started with 36 eggs in our incubator, last check we only found three to be duds. We plan on selling this batch and hatching another clutch for ourselves as well as my uncle. Sweetness. So yeah other than my health issues and hatred of my job all is well. So L8ers... haha, you'd have to know the book series it's from to laugh at it.
current mood:  ditzy
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| Tuesday, September 13th, 2011
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3:25 am - Just another day...
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Well, I had the day off and accomplished absolutely nothing. Seeing as this morning i woke up and noticed something wrong with my hand. I have this bony portrusion on the palm of my hand where the palm of my hand and the base of the pinkie knuckle meet. So I'm gonna have to have the doctor tell me what he thinks. I already have an appointment for friday to get my blood sugar tested again. Yeah, gotta have it done every three months to make sure I don't go diabetic like my Dad. Just one more thing to add to my file on top of my screwed up ankle.
Anyway, I've got to work in the morning. My boss has a doctors appointment in the am to see if she's expecting, not sure where I stand on that one. But nothing to do about it anyways, not my problem until she takes maternity leave.
Does bring up the question of when i'll get to start my own family, vince has no comment other than that he does want kids eventually. My self imposwed deadline is fast approaching though. I told him straight up, I plan to have our first child by the time I'm thirty. I will not wait until I'm middle aged to start popping out kids. I want to be in their lives and thier children's lives for as long as I can. Now if only I could get Vince to make it all officail and get on with it. We will never be financially ready for any of it, so what's the use in waiting? I'd like my dad to see his grandkids before he dies. I can't say how long he'll be around if he don't start taking better care of himself. Same for Papa and Vince's parents. Hell I still have my grandparents on my mom's side too, but they aren't spring chickens. Anyway, maybe I can talk him into to it... Once I get my house cleaned and organizedand get him to do housework and stop being a forgetful frannie...He tries, but he's not very good at either. Heh, he's far from perfect, but I love him anyways.
Alrighty then, I need to go to bed if I'm gonna open the store tomorrow. Seeing as we'll have to leave a bit earlier with the detours from the flooding and Vince needing to make it back to bainbridge by nine-thirty in the morning. I'll take my leave and hopefully have a good day tomorrow.
current mood:  jealous
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| Monday, September 12th, 2011
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1:19 am - Wow..
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Can it really have been ten years? It just doesn't seem like it's been that long. Watching the re-runs of those horrific events seems like yesterday. Sitting in my room listening to the TV as I played an online game. Pausing at the cries of a news reporter, only to look over at the screen and have my jaw drop in realization of what I am witnessing. Time stood still as the shock of it all hit me. I came back to myself and managed to drag myself into the living room to sit beside my Grandmother. We held hands and cried silently as we watched with rapt awe and repulsion as the events unfolded. I will never forget that day as long as I live.I remember being mad when they stopped showing what happened later in the day, I felt it my right as an american to bear witness to all of it, we all should have that right. It was the single most tragic moment in our history as a people and a country.
Sitting here this evening I re-lived that day as i watched the special broadcasts for the tenth anniversary. I haven't cried so much in a long time, not since my grandmother passed away. I wept as I did when it happened, for all those innocent lives ended so suddenly for no reason. I will always have a place in my heart for those left behind and for the ones they lost.
I really should try to update this more often seeing as i never update facebook except when I'm playing games
current mood:  nostalgic
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| Wednesday, January 12th, 2011
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1:19 am - Holy crap Batman!
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I'm so behind the times man. I really need to start updating again. From now on I'll try harder, I promise.
current mood:  busy
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| Thursday, July 23rd, 2009
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10:41 pm - What gives?!
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What gives? Did everyone die or something?!! No one updates anymore is this like a dead site or what?! I mean yeah facebook and myspace are great, but whatever happened to journaling... do ya really need all the pics and crap? I mean I have accounts with both for the sake of old highschool friends and others that I never see, but gimme a break people. Grar!
current mood:  cranky
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| Monday, May 11th, 2009
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12:24 am - Mother's day
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Mother's day sucked. I mean not the holiday itself, but my trip to see Grammy. i don't know how to explain exactly what I feel. She's not there anymore, what was left of her personality is gone. She didn't know who I was, where she was or what was going on. I mean how do you talk to someone who doesn't talk back or have any clue as to what you just said. It was so hard seeing her in that wheelchair, listing to one side just staring vacantly out the window. I had all I could do to not break down and cry right there.
current mood: sad
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| Monday, April 27th, 2009
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12:00 am - ... I can't stand myself...
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Why is it I can never do what I set out to do? I went to see my Grandma today. She was sleeping and I didn't want to wake her. It wasn't because I thought she needed the rest, I just couldn't face her. Not without breaking down into to tears. She looked so much frailer lying in that bed, I can't take it. That's not the woman she was, she never looked that way. It tore me up to see her. I mean I've been putting off visiting the nursing home for two months now, I feel horrible anoput it, but I didin't want to hurt her by showing up and balling because I've got issues with her being old and looking it now. I can't stand myself. I did the same thing when my Grandpa was in the hospital dying from pneumonia. He was intibated do he wasn't awake, but I still couldn't handle it. I know that's a common reaction, but I still felt badly about it and I still do. I'll never forgive myself for not saying goodbye to him when I had the chance. I don't want the same thing to happen with Grandma. I worried I'll make her feel bad, but i know I have to see her. I don't know what to say to her, or how to look at her without getting emotional. I mean she's dying, not of some horrible disease, but inside. She's losing herself, dementia, parkinsons, all of it is slowing killing her personality. I don't know if I can watch her become a husk of her former self. More than half the time she doesn't know who you are or where she is and for that matter who she is. It's torture to see it, but I can't avoid this anymore. I just don't know if I'm Strong enough to face it. I need to for both our sakes, that's what my brain tells me, but my heart can't take it.. I cried for a long time this afternoon... I'm crying right now as I write this. Makes it very Hard to see the keyboard. I keep capitalizing for no reason. ugh.. I think I need to go to bed. I'm so tired.
current mood:  guilty
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| Tuesday, April 14th, 2009
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1:26 am - I have returned!
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Boom baby! That's right. I have a computer again and the internet!! Woo! *is a little over-excited* OMG, where to begin... what to leave out. I'm gonna just have to dive in I think. Yeah, um my spelling isn't what it once was. I haven't owed a computer for like six years. Sad, I know. I gots me a laptop this time, oh and it kicks booty. I mean it is mine afterall. Wow, it's so strange to be typing again. I'm so not used to this keyboard yet with the weird touch pad mouse and what not, makes it a little harder to type. Any-who.. I've returned.
current mood:  excited
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| Saturday, September 20th, 2008
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7:19 pm - boom!
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Wow, life can be weird sometimes. I've been staying at my Aunt's house, taking care of my Grandmother for the past two weeks. It's so strange, this is the woman who raised me and she can't remember who I am. She has Parkinsons(?) and we think early Alsheimers. I was kinda forced into taking care of her on short notice, it was an experience. I've watch children for a long time and she reminded me of a child. She's 82 and acts like my five year old sister sometimes. When my Aunt left, she neglected to leave me any information on what to expect. Apparently my grandmother suffers from mini strokes, that would have been some important infomation at the time instead of saying "oh, she has spells now and then. Just make sure she's sitting down." Grrr... nice to know when she's standing in the bathroom doorway and starts to go down like a sack of potatoes. Needless to say, we made it through okay, once I carted her to the bed in the next room and got her sitting. It took fifteen minutes to pass, she had no clue how she got where she was or what had been happening prior. Sometimes she doesn't know who she is or where she is. That's kinda scarey to be dealing with. We made it through alright, She only had two spells and fell once the whole time my Aunt was gone. She only fell because she turned to quick and I couldn't catch her in time. She didn't hurt herself too badly thank god. It'll be nice having Grammy so close by, I've already informed my Aunt never to do that again. I can handle watching over her for a day or two, but two weeks was more than I can take. I was a nervous wreck by the time she came home. But that's over for the time being and life goes on as normal. So here I am, jotting all this down for no real reason other than I'm bored and have nothing better to do until I wake up my boyfriend Vince so we can go get Chinese. Yay! We promised to get some for his little sister, she just had back surgery on thuresday. (well she's not little.. she's in college) She loves chinese, so we thought she'd enjoy it tonight. Yeah, so I think i've written more than enough at this point in time, none of it very interesting, but too bad.
current mood:  restless
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| Monday, September 1st, 2008
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3:21 pm - Haha... I'm bored
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Q: How many women with PMS does it take to change a light bulb?
A: One. Only ONE!! And do you know WHY? Because no one else in this house knows HOW to change a light bulb! They don't even know that the bulb is BURNED OUT! They would sit in the dark for THREE DAYS before they figured it out. And, once they figured it out, they wouldn't be able to find the light bulbs despite the fact that they've been in the SAME CUPBOARD for the past 17 YEARS! But if they did, by some miracle, actually find them 2 DAYS LATER, the chair they dragged to stand on to change the STUPID light bulb would STILL BE IN THE SAME SPOT!! AND UNDERNEATH IT WOULD BE THE WRAPPER THE STUPID @*!#$% LIGHT BULBS CAME IN! WHY? BECAUSE NO-ONE EVER CARRIES OUT THE GARBAGE!! IT'S A WONDER WE HAVEN'T ALL SUFFOCATED FROM THE PILES OF GARBAGE THAT ARE 12' DEEP THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE HOUSE. THE HOUSE!! - IT WOULD TAKE AN ARMY TO
CLEAN THIS #@*$!#@*$!#@!... HOUSE!
I'm sorry...what did you ask me?
current mood:  bored
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| Tuesday, August 19th, 2008
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3:29 pm - Holy crap...
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Gah! My Grammy has a fractured ankle! Go home care Aunt Kissy! Stupid idiots.
Yeah I found this out from my step-mom yesterday. So I called Florida today. Aparrently it wasn't as bad as everyone made it sound. Grammy fell down a couple weeks ago, she got up and was walking aound alright so noone thought anything of it, she was just bruised. She told me she's fallen a couple of times and nothing happened. Well the went to the doctor because she wasn't feeling good and asked him to check her ankle while they were there. Turned out she had fractured two spots. O.O wah! She swears it didn't bother her. I just can't believe it took that long for them to say, "Huh this doesn't look better, maybe we should have the doctor look at it while we're here." *bangs head on desk* My family are morons!
On a cooler note guess how long it's been since I quit smoking? Go on.. Guess!! hahaha!! almost a year! I quit in october of last year, woot!! I must admit though it's been hard to not gain a bunch of weight, I notice that I am hungry more than I used to be, stupid addiction. I have tried to stay as active as I can, no way do I wanna get as big as my Dad, he's pushing 400 and he's diabetic. He quit smoking a year before me, but he was already rotund at 358. I'm trying not to go past 155, but it's damn hard to keep it off. I really can't risk it, we have so many health issues in my family.
On to better things, Vince and I are hoping to move into our own place this fall, Things aren't going as fast as we'd like them too, but we are still hopeful. I need to get a car, vince needs to get a new car. I'm planning on going back to school as soon as I can manage it. I'd like to be able to get better jobs, minimum wage sucks. I'm still trying to dig myself out of the debt hole I fell into. *cough* $820 of which my parents gave me*cough* Assholes. So I'm still in the hole by about $1,500, but I'm setting money aside out of my paychecks. Sooner I'm debt free, the better my credit will be. Heh, that almost rhymes. Well, I need to go before this gets too long. Later Kittins!
current mood:  dorky
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| Tuesday, August 12th, 2008
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9:08 pm - Hi all!
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Okay, well I know I haven't updated in like forever. I've been kinda busy with my horrible new job. I hate Arby's... at least the one I work at. I now have the beginings of carpal tunnel or however it's spelled. I have to wear an annoying brace on my wrist whenever possible and always to bed at night. IT SUCKS! Gotta love it. I should be wearing it now, but it's not very flexible. Anywho, Vince has been a big bad tractor trailor driver for a month now! He's making over twice as much as he was before, which is so great seeing as I work minimum wage. We'll hopefully be moving into our own place this fall if everything goes as planned. Seeing as this is now plan B, Plan A would have had us in our own place this summer, but Fate didin't let that happen. I'm going to try to get back to school as soon as I can. It'll be easier once I can get my own vehicle, seeing as I carpool everday. Vince wants to buy a new laptop once he gets his car fixed. I was all YAY! Mine is still in Florida and useless anyway. We're going to try to get down as soon as we can afford to take the time off. I haven't talk to my Grammy in like a month, she may not know who I am when I do. She has Parkensons and the beginings of Alstimers. Grrr... whick sucks ass. My Aunt Kissy is living with her and so is her drunk ass stupid "boyfriend", whom everyone including Grammy despises. Needless to say, I'm not too thrilled with Kissy right now anyway. She decided to bring "all" my stuff up last time she came up to her house. I'm missing so many things. She threw a lot of stuff away, after asking me. I know what I had and I know what is missing and it's a hell of a lot more than I gave her permission to get rid of. Not to mention my Cousin Ann took some of my stuff when she moved out of Grammy's house too. So I'm not thrilled with my family at this point in time. I mean when the very first quilt my Grammy made me is missing in action and a bonified Stawars Ewok from the eighties is missing I'm more than a little pissed. God I am so going to have to use spell check. I haven't typed so much in years. Wow... I can't spell. HAH! So I guess this is a pretty good size entry for now. Maybe I can update more often. Love you guys!
current mood:  crazy
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| Thursday, May 15th, 2008
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9:29 pm - Ahh!!
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I am alive... I swear it!. I just can't update whenever I want to. Hopefully I'll be able to by the end of the year. Oh.. I work for Arby's now.... yeah take that as you will. I have to go now. Jennie!!! I'm going to send an e-mail as soon as I can! Luv you.
current mood:  drained
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| Wednesday, July 4th, 2007
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9:06 pm - I live!!!!
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Yes well, that stated I shall go... Hehe. It's time for my going home. Vince needsto go to bed, he has to be up at three in the mornin. So I'll be seeing you. Luv you guys! Later!!
current mood: sad
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| Wednesday, February 15th, 2006
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8:31 pm - Poo
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Not much going on up here in the frigid notherlands. m.. yeah... I'm at a loss for words at the awesome boring-ness of my hermitage. Hehe... I kid. I'm perfectly happy with my life at this moment.. er.. actually since Vince and I got together I'm the happiest I've been in a long time. Yay!! I miss everybody soooooooo much it hurts, but I'll be in touch .. just as soon as I remember to write to all of you. *has brain farts* Anyway! I love you guys soo much and I miss you bunches! *hugs and kisses*
~Bethers
current mood:  loved
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| Wednesday, November 16th, 2005
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12:39 pm - *blinks* Hello..
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Okay.. super long time no update. Well, I really can't since I have no access to a computer on a regular basis. So shall I go into what's been going on since I last contacted anyone... yes? Okay.
I am going on to four months of being with Vince.*yays* The doctor has decided that I have Asthma.. go me >:( At this present moment I have a head cold and am in a really bad mood because of my Dad's y attitude. *thinks he needs to lighten up a bit* The man just can't handle anything that goes wrong.. well he tries, but not in a good way. Moooving on! I'm looking fo another job right now. The one I have sucks monkey butt and I'm not even making a hundred bucks a weeks anymore. I'm poor... AGAIN! But I'm still keeping a smile on my face, I've got great friends, a wonderful guy and a roof over my head. I know I'll find a better job, so no big.. next year Vince and I are looking for our own place. That means no more babysitting and putting up with my disgruntled father. *jigs* Well, I can't think of too much more to write about and Dad will get all bent out of shape if I don't call him soon. Oh! I nearly forgot.. I've been driving a lot and will be looking into taking my exam as soon as I can work it into my schedule. Now I need to go home.. deal with my Dad and Brei and hope our missing dog comes home. Yeah, Genny has been missing since Sunday. Dad and I aren't sure she'll come back because Rona came home with Quills in her nose. If Genny tried to bite it then she may be dead, the quills will lodge in the throat and airways.. internal bleeding and Death usually occur if they aren't removed within a few hours. So WE're keeping our fingers crossed that someone picked her up thinking she was a stray and took her to the pound or still has her. Another bad thing is that it is Deer season up here too and she is almost the same color as a deer and them damn city folk have a hard enough time telling the differnce between a cow (black and white) and a deer (brown!!!) Yep, things might turn out okay, but we aren't getting Greg to hopeful. Poor kid's already lost one dog in the past two years.. Anyway, I really need to go so I can call my Dad and let him know I'm finished with work. So I'll try to update again as soon as I can get back to the library. Love you and miss you all! *big hugs*
current mood:  blah
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| Tuesday, August 23rd, 2005
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10:05 pm - Blarghies!
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I live! Well.. on a level. Yes.. much good has happened. I will call Jen on Friday.. I don't have to work. I hope she got my birthday wishes. I miss you all so much love you!,
current mood: sad
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| Friday, April 15th, 2005
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2:57 pm - OKay, recap time...
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I made sure to bring my journal to the library with me. *go me*
Since November-
I had a job... lost a job. Why? Because of stupidity! I'll not bore you with it. I've worried myself sick about being broke and missing Jen's wedding. My parents saved me on that one. For my birthday gift they are flying me to Florida for her Big Day. *they so rock*
My dad spent a total of three weeks in the hospital for blood clots in his lungs. He's doing good now, thank god. Now he has to worry about his bad knee, he gets an MRI in a couple days.
I got all silly over pictures Jen sent me.. I tried not to cry, but it didn't work. I thought about all the fun times we'd had in high school. I still remember the all night anime fests. Hanging out in Jen's room with her and paul. Hehe, fighting with paul was almost as much fun as watching the movies. Is that sad?
I turned twenty-three on april first. Some fun... I can't say I expected too much more than I got. *blahs*
Then I got a job! Yay! I love my new job. I get to clean rooms at the local hotel for minimum wage. *does the happy dance* I've become friends with the I trained with, June. She's nice and funny too.
We were flooed out down here in town for a few days. Some of my road washed away, but it's all repaired now. It was the worst recorded flood since the one in 1935, when everyone was devestated in the area.
That's pretty much it.
Wow.. that seems so boring to me. Oh well, I can live with it.
Later kittens!
current mood:  geeky
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| Thursday, April 14th, 2005
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11:22 am - Ahhh!!!
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Library computers suck! I can't get to my friends page or anything. Grr... Doom on you! Anyway.. I really don't feel like updating at the moment. So here is a breif sum.
1- I am now twenty-three... *go me*
2- I am a housekeeper at the local hotel.
3- I actually like my new job. *wow*
4- I am in Inu-yasha withdrawl.
5- I'm going to Florida this summer for Jennie's wedding! *jigs*
6- I'm a blond again... *blink*
7- I'm bored.... *sigh*
8-.... enough already!
Yeah so there the snippets of info I feel like giving at the moment. Maybe in the next few weeks I'll bring my notebooks and fill in the blanks from last year until now. Until then I'll miss you guys! Luv ya bye!
current mood:  giddy
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